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Invisible And Alone In This Crowd

Thursday, September 21, 2017 No comments:
She was smiling, but it didn’t reach her eyes. The smile looked brittle and fake and half-frozen on her face. But no one noticed. No one ever would. She was alone and this was fact.

She was walking amidst a crowd of people. There were so many of them and they all had at least one companion and friend with them. These people were laughing joyously, happily, as if they didn’t have any problems, as if there wasn’t anything wrong.
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Her smile quivered and faltered as she watched them, observing their wild gestures and the sparkle in their eyes and the happiness just radiating from them. And, suddenly, her eyes were stinging and it was rather hard to see where she was going.

But what did it matter anyway? It wasn’t like she knew where she wanted to go. She didn’t know any of these people, but it still hurt. How was it possible to feel so invisible and alone even while she was standing in a crowd of people?

Everyone was lost in their little world and no one paid the slightest bit of attention to her. They missed the way her smile turned to a miserable frown and the way her eyes filled with tears.

Unable to take it anymore, she ran, ran as fast as she could though she knew not where she was going. Perhaps it didn’t really matter where she was headed as long as her destination would lead her to the happiness that she was forever seeking.

Comments (from back when this used to be posted elsewhere):

Janet (&jabo):
This wrenches at the heart - you made me feel this poor girl's despair.

Freya (in reply to Janet):
Thank you :). That was what I was aiming for. I'm glad I was able to convey the feelings of the character with the words and descriptions.

*Notes:
- Sad, depressed, alone, crying girl poster is from Amazon.com

If You Wish On A Star, Will It Work?

Sunday, September 10, 2017 No comments:
You stare up at the dark night sky with eyes that have suffered far too much. As you lie there, alone, on the cold hard ground, you can’t help but wish on the sparkling and twinkling stars that you see. They’re so bright and beautiful and far away and unattainable, just like your dreams.

You wish it weren’t so, but it is, unfortunately. You wish that someone would show up and offer you a hand. You wish that someone would care enough to listen to you. You wish that someone would hear your voice and understand you.
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You wish that you can just cry out and scream all of your grievances and frustrations to the world. You wish that someone would hold you and hug you and comfort you. You wish that it wasn’t so cold and lonely and dark. You wish you weren’t so miserable. You wish you could be happy. You have a million and one wishes.

And, as you look at all of the stars littering the sky, you frantically try to wish for all the things that you want and need. But wishes are just wishes, aren’t they? Do they really mean anything?

You wait and wait and wait some more. Yet nothing happens. Nothing changes. Things remain the same, as always. You’re still here, still alone, still unhappy.

Oh, wait, there is something that changes. Your eyes- they grow darker and colder and the light in them slowly fades away into nothingness until they are nothing but soulless orbs that hold nothing but despair.

Comments (from back when this used to be posted elsewhere):

&Brilliant:
Wishing upon a star involves a miracle. It depends on how much you put faith in it.

Freya (in reply to &Brilliant):
Guess that's another way of looking at it. Another might be that it's all just mere luck and chance. Or maybe that it has nothing to do with anything at all and whether one wishes on a star or not has absolutely no consequence to any event that might or might not transpire. Perhaps it might also depend on what one believes in. Maybe even the kind of wish would have an effect as to whether or not it will come true such as how plausible or impossible the wish is to fulfill.

theresa kalesa (&organic_love):
No! Please no! If you must stop wishing but never cease praying. Enlighten those eyes with the fire of hope. :)

Freya (in reply to theresa):
:). Sometimes, it doesn't seem to be that easy though. Sometimes, life is just so much of a struggle and everything can feel so dreary and gloomy and dark that even wishing does nothing. And, sometimes, you might feel so tired and weary of it all that it seems like hope is useless and you might just feel like giving up because of all the sadness and the pain you have to endure and experience.

*Notes:
- Image is a wall scroll poster of Mirai Kuriyama from the anime Kyoukai no Kanata (Beyond the Boundary) from Amazon.com
- Pic is meant to represent the character in the story looking up at the stars

Don’t Want To Be Invisible Anymore

Wednesday, August 30, 2017 No comments:
“I’m here. I exist. I’m alive. I’m not invisible. Can’t you see me? Can’t you hear me?” she cries out.

But no one is paying attention to her. They’re all busy living their perfect, happy lives. They don’t see anything else and they don’t care about anyone else.
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She walks around, her smile shaky and wavering, as she searches for someone who could see her, who would listen to her, who would speak to her, who would reassure her that, yes, she was not invisible. She found no one that fit that description.

She smiled at pretty much everyone she came across, but they either ignore her, don’t see her or are just too caught up in their own world to bother with someone they don’t even know.

Her smile was slowly turning into a frown and her eyes became blurry. As tears fell down her face (she couldn’t have stopped it even if she tried), she thinks to herself, what was so wrong with what she wanted? She just didn’t want to be invisible anymore. She just wanted to be seen and heard and noticed. Is that so bad?

The winds blew, ruffling her hair and clothes, but she ignored this in favor of looking up at the dark, dark night sky. No light greeted her, only endless darkness and blackness. And she was lost in its swirling depths, feeling empty and cold and frozen and more alone and invisible than ever.

Comments (from back when this used to be posted elsewhere):

donna (&littlefoot1026):
The most beautiful moment is when someone sees you while you are invisible.

Freya (in reply to donna):
Yes, it would be really nice if someone who is invisible and largely ignored and overlooked can be noticed by other people, if there are those who can see the fake smiles in other people and notice that someone is feeling down and sad or that someone feels alone.

But it's unfortunate that this doesn't always happen and there are many who still remain invisible and very lonely as people around them ignore them and overlook them and don't seem to see how hurt they feel or how they wish they weren't invisible anymore.

*Notes:
- Image is a screenshot from the Hell Girl anime series from Amazon.com
- Pic is meant to represent the lonely and depressed character in the story

Get Out Of My Side Of The World

Saturday, August 19, 2017 No comments:
Also known as, "If I need your help, I'll ask" and "My side, my rules, my way, so don't interfere".

Previously, in this series, we listened to East’s explanation about exactly why West should not interfere on any issues or problems plaguing the eastern kingdoms of The World.

Simply put, those kingdoms are not under West’s jurisdiction, and, therefore, West should not be helping or interfering unless asked to do so by East.
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Do you think West gets all that? Well, that’s definitely debatable since, the whole time East was talking and explaining, West looked pretty pissed off like the western Superhero wanted to interrupt and scream angrily at East.

Now, West takes a deep breath and attempts to calm down. Clearly, West is still all for a peaceful discussion and really doesn’t want to blow up at East and fight.

“Look, East,” West says, taking another deep breath. “And, uff, don’t call me 'amber'. I mean, I’m part of this too, okay? My side of The World is totally part of this too, like, seriously, it is.”

*Notes:
- This is part 75 of The Adventures Of The World’s Superheroes series, a story told in several short posts
- Part 74
- Image is Amber Dragon, Dusk from the Cardfight!! Vanguard TCG card game from Amazon.com
- Pic was chosen to represent the 'Amber' nickname that East calls West

Reason Why It Hurts To Feel So Invisible

Sunday, June 11, 2017 No comments:
Hey, hello. Hi there. What’s up? How are you? Oh, hey, guess what? Want to know something interesting? You know, I-

He sighed and stopped speaking. What was the use? He was invisible. No one noticed him. He was right there, standing amongst the crowd of people, but not a single person noticed him.

He tried talking to them, befriending them, but it was no use because no one paid attention to him. They were all so busy with their lives; they were too selfish to care about other people.
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He bit his lip and tried not to cry. He looked around him. Everyone was happy, smiling, laughing and no one noticed him or how hurt he was and how invisible he felt.

Hey, hey – he tried again – look at me. I’m right here. Please, I exist too, you know? I’m standing right here. At least, hear me out. I just want my voice to be heard.

I just want someone to listen to what I have to say. Am I that insignificant? Why can’t you see me? I’m alive. I exist. I’m here.

Comments (from back when this used to be posted elsewhere):

Analyn (&dysenteryanalyn):
This is another depressing story. I wonder how you come up with these stories.

Freya (in reply to Analyn):
I’m not really sure. I get ideas and I just write it down. It might also have something to do with what people might be feeling or thinking about or what they’ve seen, etc.

Blanka Đulabić (&B4RBii3):
It hurts, because we all want to be seen but, also, to stay alone, a little bit, and sometimes, it’s really difficult to find the balance.

Freya (in reply to Blanka):
Yeah, I think everyone wants to be seen and noticed. Who wants to be invisible, right? Perhaps, people are just looking for a place where they can feel that they belong, where they won’t feel so alone and unwanted and unloved.

A little solitude or quiet time is okay once in a while, but who wants to be alone all the time? There should be some balance between being alone and not being alone.

*Notes:
- Sad boy anime art print on canvas pic is from Amazon.com
- Pic is meant to represent the lonely and depressed character in the story