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Showing posts with label dark themes. Show all posts

Don't Stop Dancing Creed Song Quote Analysis

Sunday, April 08, 2018
"Hey God, I know I’m just a dot in this world, have you forgot about me?"
- Don’t Stop Dancing (song by Creed)

Don’t Stop Dancing was sung by Creed. It’s track number 10 on the music album entitled ’Weathered’. It was written by Mark T. Tremonti and Scott Stapp.
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What do you think about this song? It’s not exactly depressing, but parts of it can seem that way if you just look at it by itself. Take this particular quote, for instance. If we’re just talking about the quote all on its own, it sounds really depressing and sad, right?
Aside from sad and depressing, it’s also the truth isn’t it? There are so many people in this world that we can feel invisible and insignificant especially when compared to all those who get all the attention. Sometimes, we might feel that we don’t matter, that we’re nothing and no one and who would care if we weren’t around anymore, right?



Sometimes, do you wonder if anyone will remember you? Do you wonder if you’ve been forgotten? Don’t you want to be noticed? Who wants to feel lonely, insignificant and invisible? It hurts to be alone, right? Sometimes, maybe all we want is for someone to pay attention to us, for someone to be there to remind us that, ‘hey, you’re not alone and, hey, someone cares about you’.

*Notes:
- Image with added text was modified by Freya Yuki using Pablo by Buffer based on the image by sinvia (CC:BY) from deviantArt
- YouTube video features the Don't Stop Dancing song by Creed
- This was previously published elsewhere

Just About Ready To Give Up And End It All

Monday, December 18, 2017
She kept on sobbing, crying, wailing loudly. Her face was tear-stained as she cried in the blond’s arms. Her words were jumbled and distorted. She didn’t even seem to notice that she was repeating so many words.

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She just kept talking; it was almost like this was the first time she ever really got a chance to speak and let out all the emotions and feelings that she kept bottled up inside her. She’d been keeping all her troubles, loneliness and depression to herself, presenting the world with a cheerful façade, but the truth was hidden behind her smile.

And yet not one single person noticed how fake her smiles were and how unhappy she truly was. Only this blond noticed and only this blond cared enough to talk to her, comfort her, and be there for her. She wondered what she would have done if he hadn’t approached her because she was near her breaking point and was about ready to just give up and end it all; this pain was too much for her and she couldn’t take it anymore.

*Notes:
- This is part 5 of a 5-part short story
- Part 4
- Crying anime girl art print on canvas pic is from Amazon.com
- Pic is meant to represent the depressed character in this story

Do You Know What Hurts The Most?

Thursday, December 07, 2017
“It hurts, it hurts,” she cried out. “Do you really know how much it hurts? I feel so alone, so unloved, unwanted, and invisible. No one sees me, no one cares about me. All I ever wanted was a friend, even just one friend who’d be there for me. I just want someone to at least care and listen even just for a short while.

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“Do you know what hurts the most? To me, what hurts the most is how I can’t even say that it hurts. Sometimes, I just want to scream out this pain to the entire world. Sometimes, I feel so angry and mad and pissed off and I- I just want- I’m so mad, and it hurts so much.

"I just want someone to notice and care and show concern. I just want one single friend. Is that too much to ask? Please, please, I don’t want to be alone anymore. It hurts so much. This pain is eating at me. I feel so sad and depressed. Sometimes, I just want to end it all. Oh, please, anyone, help me, help me!”

*Notes:
- This is part 4 of a 5-part short story
- Part 5
- Sad anime girl art print on canvas pic is from Amazon.com
- Pic is meant to represent the depressed character in this story

Here are some of the comments from this story, back when it used to be posted elsewhere:

Divya Uikey P (&smtutorial):
There is nobody alone in this world. it is just our mind which thinks that we are alone. whenever I found myself alone I always spend time with God who sent us here and within us. The meditation is the process where I feel I am not alone.

Freya Yuki replied to &smtutorial:
Let’s agree to disagree 😃. I think there are some people who really do feel alone, who don’t have anyone who will be there for them or who can understand them or who will listen to them, or who will care for them, etc.

Sometimes, people can feel alone even if they’re surrounded by many other people for a number of different reasons, like because everyone is talking to everyone else and they have no one or because they feel invisible and ignored and like they don’t matter, etc.

And, everyone has their own beliefs and not everyone shares the same beliefs, but that doesn’t mean that people can’t be friends with each other even if they may have their differences; people can still get along in spite of that. But it’s good that you don’t or never have to feel alone 😃.

&crazyhorseladycx:
well dang it, i jest wanted to climb through the 'puter screen ‘n wrap my arms 'round this character 'n let her know that i put a new light bulb at the end of the tunnel 'n’d stay with her til she found her path.

Freya Yuki replied to &crazyhorseladycx:
Thanks. I’m sure she’s glad that there’s at least one person who will be there for her so she doesn’t have to feel so depressed or alone all the time.

Everyone needs some light in their lives, no matter how dim, so they can have something to hope for, something to look forward to, and so they can have the strength to keep on fighting and moving forward no matter how much it hurts and no matter how much they might feel like it’s not worth it and that they should just give up because all their efforts and hard work amount to nothing and they’re nothing, invisible and insignificant and no one cares about them or whatever happens to them since they don’t mean anything to anyone.

&crazyhorseladycx replied to Freya Yuki:
severe depression’ll make one have those very feelin’s ya describe so eloquently above. i so wish i had yer smooth way with words!

All I Ever Wanted Was Friendship

Sunday, November 26, 2017
“Because I know what it’s like to want a friend. I know what it’s like to wish that someone would care, that someone would notice you, that someone would listen to you, understand you, be there for you. If you want me to, I can be your friend,” the blond said, sounding sincere, honest, and understanding.

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As the blond continued to talk, she couldn’t help but start to tear up. “Yes,” she said when he finished speaking. “I’ve always, always wanted a friend.” She was really crying now, tears streaming down her face, but she couldn’t have stopped even if she wanted to.

She wrapped her arms around him, burying her head on his chest and cried. She sobbed loudly, tears continuing to fall down her face as she practically wailed. She even tried to punch him weakly, letting out all her anger and pain and sadness and hurt.

The blond held her tightly, patting her gently on the back. He said nothing, but his presence spoke volumes. He comforted her. He listened to her. He didn’t judge her. He was just there, offering her a shoulder to cry on, his friendship, and it was all she ever wanted.

*Notes:
- This is part 3 of a 5-part short story
- Part 4
- Crying anime girl art print on canvas pic is from Amazon.com
- Pic is meant to represent the characters hugging in this story

Is It Okay To Feel The Way I Do?

Wednesday, November 15, 2017
“Oh, it’s you. Hello,” she said. She would have asked him what he was doing here, but she knew that already (there was a party, after all. Why else would he be here?). “What was all that about?” she asked instead, wanting to know why the blond had hugged her all of a sudden; that was odd, strange and weird to say the least.
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The blond returned her greeting with a nod. “You look like you need one,” he said in answer to her question.

She stared at him. “Wh-what? What do you mean?”

The blond smiled knowingly at her. “I know,” he said, as if he really did know everything.

Before she could react to that, he was pulling her back into his arms, into a friendly hug. “It’s okay, you know?” he said. “To feel the way you do. I understand. You don’t have to keep it to yourself. I’m here to listen. Tell me about it.”

She looked at him, trying to see if he was sincere, if he meant it. She could see no lies on his face or his eyes. All she saw was understanding, honesty, and concern. “Really? But why?”

*Notes:
- This is part 2 of a 5-part short story
- Part 3
- Crying Fairy Tail anime pic is from Amazon.com
- Pic is meant to represent the characters hugging in this story

Do You Know The Truth Behind This Smile?

Saturday, November 04, 2017
She stood against the wall with a smile frozen on her face. She looked so happy as she watched everyone around her, talking and laughing and dancing and generally having a good time. She was always smiling and looking happy; it seemed nothing could ever make her sad or depressed.

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There was something lurking beneath her eyes though. She didn’t think anyone would ever notice even if the truth was right there in front of them. Either no one noticed or they just didn’t care. Well, so what? She didn’t care either. She just continued to smile at everyone. In case you didn’t notice, she’s happy, really happy, okay? And that’s the truth.

She didn’t know how long she’d been standing there, but she was surprised when someone suddenly grabbed hold of her hand. She was then pulled into a hug. She pulled away and looked up.

She was surprised to see the blond (she knew him, but couldn’t even remember where they’d met or if they’d ever spoken more than a few polite words and greetings to each other), of course, but she was more surprised by the fact that he wasn’t smiling at her, not in the way everyone else smiled just to be polite (those smiles meant nothing; they were so fake, it hurt).

*Notes:
- This is part 1 of a 5-part short story
- Part 2
- Smiling girl anime pic is from Amazon.com
- Pic is meant to represent the smiling character in this story

What We Sometimes Want And What We Always Need

Friday, October 13, 2017
Sometimes, you just want to scream and shout, pour out your feelings of sadness and pain and melancholy to a world that refuses to listen to you.

Sometimes, you just want to cry, shed tears of sorrow as you stand alone in the middle of an open field and as you realize that you’re alone, alone, always alone, with only the moon and the stars for company.
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Sometimes, you can’t help but feel so much anger, hatred, rage and frustration as nothing seems to go right and everything you do seems to fail.

Sometimes, you just want to be held, to cry in someone’s arms and feel reassured and comforted and reminded that you are loved and not alone and that there is someone that does care.

Sometimes, you just want to hear the words that “it will be all right”. Sometimes, you just want someone to listen to you, to know that your words don’t fall on deaf ears. Sometimes, you just want someone to smile at you and remind you that you haven’t been forgotten.

Sometimes, you feel so afraid and scared that you just want to close your eyes and will the darkness and the despair away. Sometimes, you just want to close your eyes and sleep, wishing that your dreams will always be beautiful and that you didn’t have to live this nightmare.

Sometimes, no, always, always, you just want to be happy. And, after all, isn’t that what really matters? Isn't that what everyone wants and needs?

Comments (from back when this used to be posted elsewhere):

&julieanne:
Wow, that is powerful. I hope that you've never felt that depth and extent of despair yourself? I know that some people do... luckily I never have, but your writing made me "feel" and empathise with this state.

Freya (in reply to &julieanne):
Thank you. Yeah, there are some people who feel like this sometimes due to a number of reasons and, maybe some just can't help but feel such despair and sorrow due to whatever they may be experiencing.

Freya (in reply to &Rosbill):
It seems that people can experience feelings like this sometimes such as feeling sad or melancholy for a number of different reasons. And, of course, it's also likely that people will always want to experience feelings of happiness all the time.

theresa kalesa (&organic_love):
I've heard it said, "Sometimes, it's okay not to be okay."
And I absolutely love your musing. This is beautiful. :D

Freya (in reply to theresa):
Thank you :). I've heard that saying too and I think it has some truth to it. Sometimes, people can just feel depressed or sad and unhappy and frustrated and other such emotions. But, of course, they'd want to feel happy and they'd want to be happy. Sometimes, it's unfortunately not that easy though.

*Notes:
- Crying anime girl art print on canvas pic is from Amazon.com
- Pic is meant to represent the depressed and sad character in the story

Invisible And Alone In This Crowd

Thursday, September 21, 2017
She was smiling, but it didn’t reach her eyes. The smile looked brittle and fake and half-frozen on her face. But no one noticed. No one ever would. She was alone and this was fact.

She was walking amidst a crowd of people. There were so many of them and they all had at least one companion and friend with them. These people were laughing joyously, happily, as if they didn’t have any problems, as if there wasn’t anything wrong.
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Her smile quivered and faltered as she watched them, observing their wild gestures and the sparkle in their eyes and the happiness just radiating from them. And, suddenly, her eyes were stinging and it was rather hard to see where she was going.

But what did it matter anyway? It wasn’t like she knew where she wanted to go. She didn’t know any of these people, but it still hurt. How was it possible to feel so invisible and alone even while she was standing in a crowd of people?

Everyone was lost in their little world and no one paid the slightest bit of attention to her. They missed the way her smile turned to a miserable frown and the way her eyes filled with tears.

Unable to take it anymore, she ran, ran as fast as she could though she knew not where she was going. Perhaps it didn’t really matter where she was headed as long as her destination would lead her to the happiness that she was forever seeking.

Comments (from back when this used to be posted elsewhere):

Janet (&jabo):
This wrenches at the heart - you made me feel this poor girl's despair.

Freya (in reply to Janet):
Thank you :). That was what I was aiming for. I'm glad I was able to convey the feelings of the character with the words and descriptions.

*Notes:
- Sad, depressed, alone, crying girl poster is from Amazon.com

If You Wish On A Star, Will It Work?

Sunday, September 10, 2017
You stare up at the dark night sky with eyes that have suffered far too much. As you lie there, alone, on the cold hard ground, you can’t help but wish on the sparkling and twinkling stars that you see. They’re so bright and beautiful and far away and unattainable, just like your dreams.

You wish it weren’t so, but it is, unfortunately. You wish that someone would show up and offer you a hand. You wish that someone would care enough to listen to you. You wish that someone would hear your voice and understand you.
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You wish that you can just cry out and scream all of your grievances and frustrations to the world. You wish that someone would hold you and hug you and comfort you. You wish that it wasn’t so cold and lonely and dark. You wish you weren’t so miserable. You wish you could be happy. You have a million and one wishes.

And, as you look at all of the stars littering the sky, you frantically try to wish for all the things that you want and need. But wishes are just wishes, aren’t they? Do they really mean anything?

You wait and wait and wait some more. Yet nothing happens. Nothing changes. Things remain the same, as always. You’re still here, still alone, still unhappy.

Oh, wait, there is something that changes. Your eyes- they grow darker and colder and the light in them slowly fades away into nothingness until they are nothing but soulless orbs that hold nothing but despair.

Comments (from back when this used to be posted elsewhere):

&Brilliant:
Wishing upon a star involves a miracle. It depends on how much you put faith in it.

Freya (in reply to &Brilliant):
Guess that's another way of looking at it. Another might be that it's all just mere luck and chance. Or maybe that it has nothing to do with anything at all and whether one wishes on a star or not has absolutely no consequence to any event that might or might not transpire. Perhaps it might also depend on what one believes in. Maybe even the kind of wish would have an effect as to whether or not it will come true such as how plausible or impossible the wish is to fulfill.

theresa kalesa (&organic_love):
No! Please no! If you must stop wishing but never cease praying. Enlighten those eyes with the fire of hope. :)

Freya (in reply to theresa):
:). Sometimes, it doesn't seem to be that easy though. Sometimes, life is just so much of a struggle and everything can feel so dreary and gloomy and dark that even wishing does nothing. And, sometimes, you might feel so tired and weary of it all that it seems like hope is useless and you might just feel like giving up because of all the sadness and the pain you have to endure and experience.

*Notes:
- Image is a wall scroll poster of Mirai Kuriyama from the anime Kyoukai no Kanata (Beyond the Boundary) from Amazon.com
- Pic is meant to represent the character in the story looking up at the stars

Don’t Want To Be Invisible Anymore

Wednesday, August 30, 2017
“I’m here. I exist. I’m alive. I’m not invisible. Can’t you see me? Can’t you hear me?” she cries out.

But no one is paying attention to her. They’re all busy living their perfect, happy lives. They don’t see anything else and they don’t care about anyone else.
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She walks around, her smile shaky and wavering, as she searches for someone who could see her, who would listen to her, who would speak to her, who would reassure her that, yes, she was not invisible. She found no one that fit that description.

She smiled at pretty much everyone she came across, but they either ignore her, don’t see her or are just too caught up in their own world to bother with someone they don’t even know.

Her smile was slowly turning into a frown and her eyes became blurry. As tears fell down her face (she couldn’t have stopped it even if she tried), she thinks to herself, what was so wrong with what she wanted? She just didn’t want to be invisible anymore. She just wanted to be seen and heard and noticed. Is that so bad?

The winds blew, ruffling her hair and clothes, but she ignored this in favor of looking up at the dark, dark night sky. No light greeted her, only endless darkness and blackness. And she was lost in its swirling depths, feeling empty and cold and frozen and more alone and invisible than ever.

Comments (from back when this used to be posted elsewhere):

donna (&littlefoot1026):
The most beautiful moment is when someone sees you while you are invisible.

Freya (in reply to donna):
Yes, it would be really nice if someone who is invisible and largely ignored and overlooked can be noticed by other people, if there are those who can see the fake smiles in other people and notice that someone is feeling down and sad or that someone feels alone.

But it's unfortunate that this doesn't always happen and there are many who still remain invisible and very lonely as people around them ignore them and overlook them and don't seem to see how hurt they feel or how they wish they weren't invisible anymore.

*Notes:
- Image is a screenshot from the Hell Girl anime series from Amazon.com
- Pic is meant to represent the lonely and depressed character in the story

Reason Why It Hurts To Feel So Invisible

Sunday, June 11, 2017
Hey, hello. Hi there. What’s up? How are you? Oh, hey, guess what? Want to know something interesting? You know, I-

He sighed and stopped speaking. What was the use? He was invisible. No one noticed him. He was right there, standing amongst the crowd of people, but not a single person noticed him.

He tried talking to them, befriending them, but it was no use because no one paid attention to him. They were all so busy with their lives; they were too selfish to care about other people.
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He bit his lip and tried not to cry. He looked around him. Everyone was happy, smiling, laughing and no one noticed him or how hurt he was and how invisible he felt.

Hey, hey – he tried again – look at me. I’m right here. Please, I exist too, you know? I’m standing right here. At least, hear me out. I just want my voice to be heard.

I just want someone to listen to what I have to say. Am I that insignificant? Why can’t you see me? I’m alive. I exist. I’m here.

Comments (from back when this used to be posted elsewhere):

Analyn (&dysenteryanalyn):
This is another depressing story. I wonder how you come up with these stories.

Freya (in reply to Analyn):
I’m not really sure. I get ideas and I just write it down. It might also have something to do with what people might be feeling or thinking about or what they’ve seen, etc.

Blanka Đulabić (&B4RBii3):
It hurts, because we all want to be seen but, also, to stay alone, a little bit, and sometimes, it’s really difficult to find the balance.

Freya (in reply to Blanka):
Yeah, I think everyone wants to be seen and noticed. Who wants to be invisible, right? Perhaps, people are just looking for a place where they can feel that they belong, where they won’t feel so alone and unwanted and unloved.

A little solitude or quiet time is okay once in a while, but who wants to be alone all the time? There should be some balance between being alone and not being alone.

*Notes:
- Sad boy anime art print on canvas pic is from Amazon.com
- Pic is meant to represent the lonely and depressed character in the story

I'm Sorry And Please Don’t Lose Hope

Tuesday, May 30, 2017
I can see it. I can feel it. You’re all suffering. You’re all hurt. It hurt so much, I know. And I’m so sorry because you had nothing to do with this. You’re innocent, you did nothing wrong and yet you’re made to pay for the sins and mistakes of those who are too selfish and self-centered.

You’re being blamed for crimes you didn’t commit. It seems everything that goes wrong in this world is your fault (why, yes, of course, it’s your fault. Who else can we blame for the darkness and the shadows and the illusions that destroy people and threaten to bring about another world war?).
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Why is it that the innocent are the ones who have to suffer? They did nothing wrong and yet they have to face the consequences. Everyone is ganging up on you and I’m sorry, but please don’t lose hope.

You may not know it, but there are people who are rooting for you, who wish only for your happiness and for you all to be free from the chains that bind you. Stay united and don’t let these cruel, evil people with their dark, dark abilities get to you. If you keep working together, surely, you can save the world from destruction.

Comments (from back when this used to be posted elsewhere):

Freya (in reply to &maromory):
Yes, it’s good to work together instead of having to do everything yourself. Sometimes, people just need all the help they can get. Sometimes, they can’t do everything by themselves. Sometimes, they just need someone to be there for them. And the world would be a better place with less wars and fighting and violence if everyone would just get along and stop fighting.

*Notes:
- Crying anime girl art print on canvas pic is from Amazon.com
- Pic is meant to represent the apologizing narrator of the story

What Do You Say To Someone Who Is Sad?

Thursday, May 18, 2017
“Hey, what in the world are you doing? Why are all these books scattered everywhere? You’re making a big mess. This had better be for a very good reason. And you’d better be cleaning all this up. What are you looking for anyway?”

“If you’re just gonna nag at me, then don’t bother. Just go away. I’m busy, okay?”

“Busy with what? Again, what are you doing?”

“What’s it look like? I’m reading, duh.”
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“Oh for the love of- what are you reading then? What are these books about anyway? Wait, what is this? What exactly are you trying to find? What’s the matter anyway?”

“Well, one of my friends is feeling all sad and depressed and miserable about the stuff going on in her life, and, well, ya know, I wanted to cheer her up, make her feel better, but I don’t know what to say.”

“So, you thought you’d go to the library and go through all the books here in search of the answer to your question? Do you really think you’ll find the answers in a book?”

“I dunno. Maybe. I mean, I tried to search the Internet first, but I didn’t get no satisfactory answer at all. So, I thought I’d try books this time.”

“Look, do you really think you need to find the answers to this? You already know. There’s no need to look.”

“What do you mean? How should I know? I don’t know anything. What am I supposed to say to her?”

The truth. Just don’t lie to her. Be sincere. Say what you want to say.”

“You’re kidding, right? Is it really that easy? Is that really all there is to it?”

Comments (from back when this used to be posted elsewhere):

Delfin4 (&delfin4):
Sometimes, silence is the best way to facing someone is sad... sometimes... :)

Freya (in reply to Delfin4):
Yeah, sometimes, one does not have to say anything to a person who is sad. One just needs to be there for that person. One just needs to show that person that he or she is not alone and that one is always there for her.

Sometimes, one just has to stand by your side and reassure you and show you that there's someone there for you who will try to help you and cheer you up and just be there for you whenever you're feeling sad and depressed.

Donna (&littlefoot1026):
A listening ear is all there should be... you can only talk when you are asked for advice.. ;o)

Freya (in reply to Donna):
Yeah, sometimes, a person might need someone to talk to. Sometimes, a person just wants to talk about his or her problems or whatever might be bothering him or her or making him or her sad and they don't want to be judged or mocked or made fun of; all they want is someone who will listen to them and not lie to them or say insincere things to them.

Sometimes, that's really all they want and they wouldn't want advice or that person trying to fix things, etc. But, there are times when they might ask for advice.

*Notes:
- Sad anime girl art print on canvas pic is from Amazon.com

Do You Wonder Why You’re Still Here?

Monday, April 24, 2017
What are you doing here? Why are you here? Why do you care? Why does any of this matter to you? You exist, but no one can see you. You’re invisible, insignificant. You don’t matter at all.

If you disappear, who will care? If you don’t show up, if no one sees you for a while, who will notice? Who will ask where you are? Who will worry?
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The truth is that you’re alone and that no one cares about you. So why are you still struggling? Why haven’t you given up yet? What’s your reason for continuing to be here? Do you sometimes think if perhaps the other side (the world, dreams, reality, nightmares – where do you belong?) is better?

Does it hurt? Do you wish the pain would stop? Do you want to scream? You can. But it won’t change anything. You can shout as loud as you want, but everyone will just ignore you.

*Notes:
- Sad boy anime art print on canvas pic is from Amazon.com
- Pic is meant to represent the lonely and depressed character in the story

Feeling Really Depressed Right Now

Wednesday, April 12, 2017
"What’s wrong?"

"What, didn’t you read the title? I’m feeling really depressed right now."

"Why? And you shouldn’t be."

"Go away. What’s it to you? I just- I feel so pathetic, so invisible and insignificant, like I don’t mean anything to anyone, like if I disappear, no one would care. I’m nothing. Nothing. I don’t even have any friends."

"Hey, don’t cry. And, ‘course you have friends. I-"
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"I said go away, didn’t I? You don’t count. How can you be considered a friend? You’re not even real."

He punched the crying, sad and depressed-looking reflection staring back at him. The mirror shattered into thousands of tiny pieces and some of the shards cut him.

But so what? What was that pain compared to what he was feeling right now? What was that pain compared to the loneliness and depression that was slowly eating at him? How much more pathetic could one get?

His only ‘friend’ was his own reflection and it hurt, it hurt so much, but no one cares. What can he do? He glanced down at the broken shards, pondering, contemplating.

"Broken," he murmurs, "just like me."

Comments (from back when this used to be posted elsewhere):

Analyn (&dysenteryanalyn):
Sadly, pain always demands to be felt. It’s better to let it out.

Freya (in reply to Analyn):
Yeah, sometimes, one has no choice but to feel pain, to be in pain even if they don’t want to be, even if it hurts and even if they wish they didn’t have to feel so much pain, loneliness and sadness.

Freya (in reply to &maromory):
Yeah, life is definitely full of so much troubles and pain. Sometimes, one might just feel like giving up because it hurts too much or because they feel so alone and depressed and that no one seems to care. One should be optimistic and hopeful though it’s not easy.

Patty Therre (&PattyT):
Life is tough. People have to be tough to stay alive. I know I have had many, many blows that made me feel like I couldn’t go on and would never smile or be happy again but here I am. I am still here, still trying to find all the good that life has to offer and trying not to let my problems take me down. You have to be pretty stubborn to keep going when all around you is dark but I believe it is worth it.

Freya (in reply to Patty):
Yeah, I completely agree with you that life can be really tough at times. Sometimes, everything just feels so depressing and the world can be so cruel and harsh and dreary that there seems to be nothing to be happy about.

I guess what’s important is to continue struggling and living and not to give up though that’s definitely easier said than done and there may be times when even the future seems bleak. But you just have to keep on believing and hoping no matter how much it hurts and no matter how much you just want to give up.

*Notes:
- Crying anime girl art print on canvas pic is from Amazon.com
- Pic is meant to represent the depressed and sad character in the story

So Tired - Take A Break From This Life, This World

Friday, March 31, 2017
“Oh man, there’s more? Seriously, when will this end? I’m sick of this. Argh, so frustrating.”

“What’s up with you now? Complaining again, I see. I’m not even surprised anymore.”

“You would too if you had to deal with this. Stop mocking me, okay? Just go away and leave me alone.”

“Oh, stop being so melodramatic. I’m not mocking you. What’s up with you anyway? What’s your problem now?”

“Work, work and more work. I’m so tired, you know. I just can’t take it anymore. I just want to sleep. Forever. When will this end?

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Sometimes, I just want to sleep forever and never wake up. Someone, help me, please

“Well, you do look weary and exhausted.”

“That’s ‘cause I am.”

“What are you going to do about it then?”

“I don’t know. Is there anything I can do about this?”

“Why don’t you just give it a break then? Rest. Sleep.”

“I would if I could. It’s not that easy though. There’s just so much to do, but so little time.”

“Don’t overwork yourself. You need to rest too. No wonder you’re exhausted if you keep trying to do everything all at once. Take it easy. It’s okay to rest once in a while.”

“Is it, really?”

“Sure, why not?”

“What about all this then? I still have so much to do.”

“Oh, don’t mind that for now. Here, I’ll help you, okay?”

“Really? Wow, thanks. You’re awesome. Did I say that yet? Because you are, you know?”

“Thank you. You’re not half bad yourself even if you drive me crazy a lot of the time.”

*Notes:
- Anime girl art print on canvas pic is from Amazon.com
- Pic is meant to represent the character in the story who is feeling tired and needs help

Looking For Someone Who Cares

Sunday, March 19, 2017
“This is crazy. This is so utterly pointless. I don’t even know why I’m still doing this. I want to stop it already. Because it hurts so, so much. I just want to be free. Let me be free. Let me break away from these chains. Who wants to be controlled? I just want my voice to be heard, I just want someone who will understand. Why does it hurt so much?”

(sigh) “I’m sorry. I don’t have any of the answers that you seek.”

“Is that all you’re going to say?”

“What do you want me to say? Were you expecting me to comfort you? I’m sorry.”
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(surprised, sad stare) “Oh, I see. Of course, you don’t care. Well. That’s fine. Perfectly fine. I don’t care either.” (a shake of the head, eyes tightly closed)

“Ah, please don’t cry. I-”

(angry, hurt glare) “Go away. I’m not crying. I don’t need you. Just leave me be.”

“No, wait. Look, I’m sorry. You misunderstand me. I only meant that- I mean, I do care. I just- I’m really horrible at this, at comforting people, I mean. I- I never know what to say, what to do. I’m sorry I’m useless. But, please, know that at least one person cares about you. I do care. I just don’t know how to express it.”

*Notes:
- Saber from Fate Stay/Night anime art print on canvas pic is from Amazon.com
- Pic is meant to represent the two characters in the story - the one who is crying and the one who is trying to comfort them

What Are You Afraid Of?

Wednesday, February 22, 2017
“Hey, exactly how long are you gonna keep staring at that?”

“What?”

“You heard me.”

“What’s it to you? Does it matter?”

“Of course, it does. You’re wasting time, you know? Just open it already. Go on, get to it.”

“But I don’t want to.”

“Do you really expect me to believe that? Are you telling me that you aren’t the least bit curious about this? Don’t you want to know what’s inside this envelope? Don’t you want to see the answers, the results?”

“Well, yes, but, I’m scared.”

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It's so easy to say, 'don't be afraid,' but it's just not
that easy. I'm really scared and I don't know how
or where to find the courage to overcome this fear

“See, I told you- wait, what? You’re what now?”

“I’m scared.”

“Of what? What’s there to be afraid of? Gracious, it’s just a package, an envelope. It’s not going to bite.”

“I know that. I mean that I want to know. But I don’t want to either. I’m just- I’m afraid, okay? I’m scared of what I’ll see when I open this. I’m scared of what I’ll find out.”

“Don’t be scared, all right? Have courage.”

“Where do I get that?”

“What?”

“Courage. Where can I get some? It’s easy to say ‘don’t be afraid,’ but I just can’t help it. I am scared. Very much so. Even if it might seem strange or weird, I just am. What do you want me to do?”

“You know what you should do. Overcome your fear then just open the package already.”

“I can’t do it. I just can’t. I’m scared.”

“Yes, I know. You said that already. You keep repeating your words.”

“Because you’re not listening. Just go away. Leave me alone. Who cares anyway? Who cares if I’m feeling like this? No one does. So don’t pretend that you do.”

*Notes:
- Scared Anime girl art print on canvas pic is from Amazon.com
- Pic is meant to represent the character in the story who is feeling scared

You’re Not Alone

Friday, February 10, 2017
You stand alone at the edge of a precipice, tears falling down your face.

The winds blow harshly, ruffling your hair and your clothes.

The rain pours down in torrents, drenching you, soaking you to the bone.

The sky is dark as night, filled with nothing but darkness, an endless sea of black and more black.

This hope- it drains from you, and this light- you continue to seek it.

But it’s nowhere to be found.

And you think, why does any of this matter anyway?

You wonder why you keep trying, why you’re still here when everything’s a mess, when nothing comes of it.

You wonder why you’re such a failure. You wonder what would happen if you just let go and welcome oblivion.

You wonder if the other side is better. You wonder why you can’t find out.

You debate your choices.

But someone else makes the decision for you.

He approaches you, seemingly from out of nowhere, and wraps his arms around you. You return the embrace and cry your heart out in his arms.

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Sometimes, it can be really easy to forget that we're
not alone, that there's someone out there who cares. Don't give up

“Hey,” he says, smiling down at you, “Guess what? You’re not alone.”

You stare up at him, surprise and shock evident in your features. You try to speak, but no words come out and you wonder what you can say to that.

It doesn’t matter. Because he holds you tighter then presses a kiss to your lips, and, suddenly, the world doesn’t seem so bad after all and maybe, just maybe, things will start looking up now, at least you hope so.

Additional info: Yes, it would be nice if no one was ever alone. But, and it’s really quite unfortunate, there are some people that are alone or are feeling lonely even if they don’t want to be alone.

There are also those who might think that they’re alone and they would need to be reassured that they’re not alone, that there’s someone who cares about them and that will be there for them no matter what.

*Notes:
- Anime couple kissing art print on canvas pic is from Amazon.com
- Pic is meant to represent the couple kissing in the short story

Higher Creed Song Quote Analysis

Wednesday, January 11, 2017
"‘Cause there’s a hunger, a longing to escape from the life I live when I’m awake."
- Higher (song by Creed)

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Higher is a song sung by Creed. It’s track number 7 on the music album entitled Human Clay. It was written by Mark Tremonti and Scott Stapp.

What do you think about this song? The entirety of Higher sounds pretty depressing when you really look at it. But let’s focus our attention on the quote mentioned above, which is also depressing.

The words from the song Higher by Creed just scream sadness and pain and despair. Feeling hungry like you’re starving - this isn’t just about food.

Maybe you’re feeling hungry for love and understanding. Or maybe it is about a literal hunger and you’re feeling that way because you’re having some financial problems.

“Longing to escape” - if you were happy, you wouldn’t feel like wanting to escape, right?

But if you’re feeling overwhelmed by all of your problems, if you feel like you can’t take this anymore, then you’d want to escape and just leave everything behind, right?

If reality is too cold, cruel and harsh for you, then you’d want to leave, you’d want to escape from your horrid life.

And this makes this quote from Creed even more depressing - because it implies that your dreams, that fantasy, is much better than reality and that you’d rather sleep forever than wake up and face the nightmare that your life has become.

*Notes:
- Image with added text was modified by Freya Yuki based on the image by sinvia (CC:BY) from deviantArt
- YouTube video features the Higher song by Creed